How to determine if a Spiritual consideration is relevant to one's circumstance:
It is important to me, in being a student of my own existence (metaphysical student), that my experience of something I seek out, reveal information that is relevant. This is a state-of-being driven by the Highest Passion within oneself. How does one determine if a thing is relevant to him? How do you answer the question of, "Does this apply to me?" You listen to the "still small voice" within yourself, and examine the evidence.
I recently spoke to a new spiritual friend, and the experience was meaningful to me. I had asked about the topic of scrying, and the conversation seemed a very good discussion of metaphysics, and the reality of a mediumistic understanding. Is scrying different than mediumship? Does it matter? Mediumship, as I understand it, is when a spiritual human being is able to achieve a state within himself, wherein he becomes a conduit for communication "from" another spiritual being perceived within his spiritual perceptual landscape. Information is gained by the medium through extended spiritual mechanisms we all may access, and this information is then conveyed (is it translated in any way by the medium? Are his memories used to interpret in some way?) to a third party. I believe it is a special spiritual journey to be a medium, and to understand and know that such fantastic things are possible.
I talk in this notebook about things I experience in physical, as well as spiritual realities. Personal inner transformations are sought, to align my "self," in and with the Highest Understanding of my own experience. This has produced the artifacts of my art.
Through the art and reflections upon it, I continue to discover more about myself and my existence. That said, I prefer meditation/prayer, writing, drawing, and nature, as vehicles for this pursuit.. Anything and everything that leads to God is paramount, over all other life considerations. Sharing my life with His Presence floors me, and I realize I am One with Him.
My friend suggested "following the Spiritual String," which is something I have called the "string of my excitement or passion" in this notebook. This notebook includes reflections upon my existence, and in their examination, I hope to learn more about what seems to be an ever-expanding, spiritually-driven reality. My mantra is to follow the "thread of excitement," and I am working it out through drawing in a trance/meditative state, and then deconstruct these using the written word. This is part of my navigation and illumination of knowing Him through my inner and outer experiences. In other words, I am experiencing the state of enlightenment of my existence, by way of contact within myself with God, and through drawing and the written word, am discovering the structure of the spiritual realm in relation to physical manifestations of His Grace in physical reality. I am looking always for His Direction and Design.
Realizations in the "Now"
The "gray line," in experiences of anything, I have found, is a state-of-mind that reveals spiritual mechanisms at work. This is a state in which it is no longer a question of one's inner integrity in his search for truth about reality; integrity is accomplished, known, and understood by experience. Further, integration of inner self-structures that originate in outmoded, old and useless belief systems, has been transformative. The self is now aware of its hierarchical place in the Universe, through Oneness with The Creator.
When the gray-line, or spiritual experience that is transformative, brings about a crux within one's thinking (and one is doing everything he knows through studies, in order to understand), he might feel that to go left, he would encounter the unknown, which would shake his inner foundations, and he must pause. This is a state wherein one's understanding of existence and his own identity, are up against a metaphorical wall, and the only way to proceed within oneself is seemingly to go left or right. A decision must be made. To just stand there in solitude, and seemingly alone in this transformative event, in some way indicates a death must occur. Death is not bad; death is transformation from one thing to the next.
Dr. Beverly Kane, in her paper titled, The Nature of Personal Belief Systems stated, "Resolving contradictions between old and new beliefs and between one's individuality and one's social conformity is the foundation of psychological growth. The most divisive conflict is the contradiction between logic and sensory (or extrasensory) experience" (158). The extrasensory experience is the spiritual experience, and I have concluded that this state of perception extends beyond my transcription of energies within the art. It is the reconstruction of, or inner weaving together of what I have been mentally defining as separate systems of being, i.e. Christ-consciousness realized within, and the brevity of the reality of the existence of "perceived others," within meditation, that I am now reflecting upon.
The most fully honest statement I can make, over any other, is that through my 50 years of experiences, there has been nothing more real to me, than what I have experienced while in the meditative or prayerful state. I believe that our word, "death," although perceived as painful because of the separation from a loved one, or perceived concurrent pain that is experienced in the process, is really a disguised gift; it is conceptually, at its core, a wonderful, not horrific, consideration within one's mind. And although excruciatingly painful at first - debilitating and destabilizing for those that still physically live - I believe the other side of this life is more real than physical reality because one's place is again known fully. I am convinced absolutely of this, and understand it is more than one's ego-mind can fathom for most. it is a Higher Place, Higher Realm, made of the stuff of Higher Knowledge. The consciousness, our energy self that can be perceived, known, and understood within meditation, is one's True and Higher self within. And, if one focuses upon the Higher Self within, and meditates upon this, life will never be the same. These considerations are realized first-hand.
This is only my personal view of "death," and should more rightly be identified within the conscious mind as "transition," or better yet, "metamorphosis of consciousness."
I know that I am a non-physical consciousness that is experiencing physical reality. And, I also know that I am an eternal being, and while I may change form, my consciousness cannot cease to exist. After enlightenment as to one's True Nature, the search to be of service to the Realized Spiritual Reality ensues. How can I be of service to the Spirit Within? This is the only valid question that remains, and the only answer I can fathom is to be myself because the Light that shines from the art, words, and experiences of the pursuit of God within this life, are from Spiritually Higher places. The Kingdom Within is what defines "me."
This is not a zealous question, to ask how one can be of service to the Spirit Within. It is a question that originates in the Higher Garden of my inner self, and I again recall that what the mind focuses upon, expands - this is the flowering of the Higher Garden within. There is never a stopping of the mind when it is focused, until one focuses on the breath, and then the mind expands into a sky of peaceful bliss that is preparatory for receipt of spiritual information. This is only limited by one's Imagination, which is realized while in this meditative state, as something originating within this Higher Realm; one is able to watch his own mind and be informed through visions that originate beyond conscious thought. The imagination is a holy and praiseworthy mechanism, and It should always be approached and accessed with integrity - and wielded with compassion.
Is the Imagination Real?
So, is the Imagination REAL? I feel my experiences within meditation are valid and real because I am changed by them, while experiencing physical reality. Further, the synchronicities and epiphanies that inform my waking reality, are counterpoint to the Real World found within the meditative and prayerful state. The essence of who I am is transformed in every moment from this perspective, and I currently see that I feel in the presence of a precipice.
I can only surmise that the Imagination is what creates Us - it is a Higher State within a Higher Place. And, although we are a collective One, the Highest of integrity-driven behaviors is what fuels It. It, is God Within oneself, and we are given, each one of us, the reflective platform of physical reality (Earth and physical existence), wherein we, once awakened to The Presence Within, may discover through devotional effort, more of Him within ourselves.
One's compass to proceed, I have found for myself, can direct us to transformative events that necessitate a restructuring of definitions that stem from beliefs. This is what I am experiencing. Semantics has always been something to cause a crux in my own realization processes - I am highly sensitive to meanings perceived as reflections of physical reality.
This inner restructuring may feel terrifying at first, but in meditation, one sees past this fear, abandons ego, and peace ensues within the stillness of the sky of the mind. I realize now, that my friend and I are describing the same thing that is a process. By following the idea of "gray line, or "spiritual string," and through sitting with God in meditation, one will be illuminated in his efforts. Ultimately, relevance is located in the Source of the commonality of Inner, Higher, Imaginative Realities, and this is Christ-Consciousness realized. And, then, I stop and look over at that state I have conjured, full of fear, doubt, and the worst of all, the ugly remorse, and decide to sit with those feelings and love them, giving gratitude and thanks to my Higher Mind for all of the reflections-of-self that others have been willing to be for "me."
To see the Light at the end of the tunnel, while smiling!