Review: Click and read John 16
Sometimes when I draw, a part of the form seen, becomes a reflection of the Word, and literally spells-out sections of the Bible that I am meant to review. Today, I perceived "John 16", and not having this consciously memorized, I reviewed it, and will now reflectively-reference through the Spirit, that experience (see today's developmental image of Convincing Adeline in the artist's Symbol Notebook).
Reflective-Reference of John 16
The experience of reading John 16 brought to mind a deep-ache I recall feeling as a child,
when I visited a Catholic Church with my best friend's family.
For some reason, I thought it was odd that these people I loved,
had wanted to go there at night.
I had no choice, I was their guest and a child, so I went along.
When we got there, I remember a long pathway, and the black and white, vertical design of the facade. It seemed to me that this place meant business. That-is, it seemed very formal in presentation - rigid, in my perception.
What is interesting about my visit to that Catholic Chuch,
was my experiential-perceptual (and instinctual) reaction.
I will never forget it. I can still see the wooden seats,
with kneeling-boards attached to the back of each one.
This was meant for you to kneel upon,
in prayer, I was told.
As I meandered further-behind my second-family between the pews, I physically felt like I was becoming heavier, or ill. I looked up, and I saw my 'other-mom' kneel in front of a large cross that was positioned above and behind the preacher's podium, and in that moment, I felt like my Soul was pulled from my chest by a Power unknown to me. That is, I Intuitively Knew the Spirit, but did not consciously comprehend Him then, and in the perceptual-experience of that discrepancy of my inner-position, I felt ill.
This recollection culls emotions, and as I sit here observing the tears, within this moment, and those shed secretly at 8-years-old, all I know is that I ran back outside in confusion. I knew it then, and I know it now, that Intuition, or the Presence of God's Spirit, positions each of us to see what we must, in order to bring our consciousness into alignment with His.
The tears of then and now are experiences. Experiences are always teaching mechanisms for Spiritual growth, and when the symbols surrounding the event are perceived as another layer of His Presence, one may discern the lesson He intends for 'you', within the awareness of, and exposure to, your own reaction.
John 16, interpreted through Intuition, is Christ's explication of one's location, in relation to a New Spiritual Comprehension, which is the conscious Realization of the Spirit. This interpretation is perceived as His Instruction, that upon the Spirit's conscious-arrival, one will know-within, the Now-Experiential-Spiritual-Perception (Intuition), of his own distance from the Spirit's Divine Position.
Christ said "13 But when he, the Spirit of truth, comes, he will guide you into all the truth. He will not speak on his own; he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come. 14 He will glorify me because it is from me that he will receive what he will make known to you. 15 All that belongs to the Father is mine. That is why I said the Spirit will receive from me what he will make known to you" (John 16: 13-15).
Overall, this reflective-reference was meant to explicate through John 16, factors and expressions of past-present experience for myself. This is how I have come to understand the Spirit's Presence, as a Reflective-Collaboration. That is, He is a Mirror of Divine Reflection.
In that, I see-now through this reflective-reference effort, that my reaction to the Catholic Church was the beginning of my own conscious-awakening to God's Spirit. Also, even though in time it has been 42 years since that seemingly-inexplicable reaction, it lingers in my Soul as significant, and through this reflection, I see a new Spiritual-Perception:
The Spirit's Presence is seemingly surreptitious.
That is, He will 'show-up' when unexpected
to the consciousness' experiential-Spiritual-perception.
He presents through symbol and Intuition,
one's Spiritual-interpreting 'Position',
which is meant for navigation,
through doubt, dubiousness, and frustration.
when we lie to ourselves,
or are confused about Love's Expression,
and Its-Eternal meaning as having no-expectation,
then one can see that John 16,
is pointing at the 'me', or the ego-position,
revealing it to be a deceptive-object of one's focus,
that creates confusion.
And the Intuitive 'conclusion',
is that Christ-Himself will deliver whatever-message,
necessary for your Life,
through the Spirit of your own Experiential-Perceptual-Reflection.
It has only been a few years since I began a sincere, consistent effort to learn about meditation, its processes and effects, as well as working daily on the development of my Spiritual understanding of the Presence.
I consciously understand I am relatively new at this.
Nevertheless, by creation of such a practice, combined with devotional-drawing for hours daily, I can only look to the evidence of the effort. You see, I had a dual-goal: to figure out who and what 'I' am, beyond 'identity', and because of that goal, quickly realized that the experiential-perception of the Spirit's Presence became the answer to that ultimate search: i.e., the Answer Discerned.
The most difficult part of finally, and honestly, figuring this out, is the Realization that 'self' doesn't really exist. That is, the who and what of 'beyond-identity' that I had been searching for, 'found me'. Then, I was relieved of my incorrect-ego-prescription, and via ephanies, synchronicities, and writing a couple of books, as well as thousands of hours drawing and sitting within meditation, it occurred to me to write about the True 'Spiritual-Location' of consciousness. This is how 'I' comprehend it, within-upon-and-through the Spirit. I mean, I will discuss what has only been Reflected to me within my own Spiritual-experiences.
You see, within my own experiential-Spiritual-perception (Intuition), I have learned that culture as a standard, seeks to organize, proliferate, produce, support, and extend, ideally. We are taught to do the same as its citizens, and when this is found to be too limited a standard, or is not 'accepted', for whatever reason by the individual, he is presented with a choice, within his experience.
This ability to 'choose' is the reason for each particular incarnation, and through each life, one is responsible for only his Spiritual Position. God's Mind brings one's awareness to His Spirit in many ways, but for myself, I found 'culture' as a questionable-comprehension, and to be the limitation Reflected-through the Presence, of pressing concern. That is, once I had begun examination of the 'situation'.
You see, 'standards', although seeminlgly 'good to have', are qualifiers of existence that effecutate with limits, and because the purpose of the formation of culture is 'survival' as a species, this structure fails within experiential-perception to serve elevation of one's Spiritual Comprehensions.
That is, 'survival' is a qualifier of an object's perception, as 'good or bad' for life-experiences, which is seemingly reasonable in the setting of time, but Spirit Lives Beyond the arena of conscious faculties (sense-organ perception), so one must call culture what it is - a limitation to Spirit's experiential-perception (Intuition), within the individual. It is through this reflection, and realization within one's Spiritual-perception, that in order to then take appropriate action, or apply the discerned-solution of one's Spiritual-Comprehension, limitation-perception (ego) must be eliminated.
Also, 'Discernment' is the Practice of the Presence at all times. What this means is that one is aware of his consciousness, as the paradoxical-nothingness that is the still-perception beyond thought; yet, it is simultaneously the Alive-State within one's focus. I mean, what is left of oneself when thought is abandoned as an interest? Show yourself what I am presenting, by reflecting through your own understanding and perception of the Presence. That is, one must only sit quietly and focus his own experiential-perception outside of thinking.
Then, in That-Expanse of Nothingness,
the 'crux' that is one's limitation-perception,
of culture and man's 'position',
dissolves through the Spirit's Reflection.
or the Realization of Intuition,
is the Lifting-Action of the Presence,
which is the 'Location' of 'Beyond-Self'
'I' am only a 'conduit' - a point of transmission for the Spirit.
I look back at the development of my perspective,
and find quite a bit of humor in it.
This is because Spiritual-growth, and Self-Realization,
occurs in Real-Time; it is reflective.
Spirit is a Mirror of your inner-position,
which is always the same, and always changing,
and at the same time invisible and nothing.
To me, that seems pretty funny!
the consciousness who meditates
through his own experiential-perception-
his own 'conception' -
of the Presence of Divinity,
finds his own Focus Paradoxically-Informed,
Paradox is the Alive-Emptiness of No-Restriction,
within Experience and Perception of the Spirit.
Paradox is also Intuition,
although when written,
the latter word itself sometimes means
How these words are used to convey,
the Presence as one's Perception,
is only Through-Illusion.
One may hone this Spiritual-Skill
and surpassing his own will,
by paying attention constantly.
One method is by focusing through the Spirit,
This has been a key
to Self-Realization for 'me.'
What happens when one
presents himself within meditation,
to the Presence of his Perception,
and applies devotion?
Then, the natural course of Spiritual events
'out-plays' Through the Spirit.
Peace, Love, Joy, and Rapture are then All-Experienced -
as 'Par for the Course' -
and one finally 'finds-himself' loving,
from a Distance,
All-Within His Spiritual-Comprehension.
the experience of self AS this New-Location,
through which one then-becomes,
indecipherable and spontaneous.
one Becomes the Observer,
or need for will-force application.
So, although 'I' am only a conduit,
or a point of transmission,
I see that Self-Realization is one's
This is the experience of 'Now-Beyond'
Peace, Love, Joy, and Rapture,
which I find humorous,
as it is not a 'final place',
only an elevation into that Position.
Within Self-Realization Meditation Practices,
one's focus inward is geometric.
as one points his focus
willfully Within-Kutastha (the Spiritual eye),
one may notice a 'backdrop'
of thought-forms present.
Thoughts are invisible -
they are 'holographic'.
They are also mechanistic,
and seemingly 'plastic'.
But to fully understand
how to Be-Free of their intrusion,
Within and Without Meditation,
one must understand the Anatomy of one's Spiritual Physiology,
which is comprehension of 'Living-Acitivity',
within the Presence of one's own-Spirituality.
This means Self-Structures have already been Re-Positioned,
to devotion-Through the Holy Spirit,
and because of these inner-studies of 'self' Within-Meditation,
His-Provision for Spiritual-Comprehension
that the Anatomy of a Memory,
is worth exploration.
this difficult-effort leads to 'uncircumscription',
from the ego and its division-prescription.
Simply, a memory is a bundle of thoughts.
it is one's own-reactions
within past self-conceptualizations,
that have-been compressed
by the illusion of time.
Looking-within such a shape (self-geometry),
leads one's focus down an inner-path,
which needs Comprehension of the Presence,
to Shine-It's-Light Within-It.
When one completes this 'Inner-Maneuver',
he sees his feelings-first.
These may be appreciated as a reflection,
but even this is a deception.
To comprehend this Spiritual position,
one must understand
feelings are meant for 'only-inspection,'
from a Distance,
and with no-expectation.
one's feelings lead to thoughts,
which then leads one to his own beliefs,
and without monitoring,
of the initial-feeling Within the Spirit,
when one then-plumbs a memory-within,
one may-convince himself
of some 'self- judgement' or 'questionable-assumption'.
one lives a reflection of only the ego (limitation),
without the Spirit's Through-Experiencial-Perception.
So, to Master for oneself
the presence of thoughts Within-Meditation,
one must Only-Focus
the Spirit's Experiential-Perception,
and in this way,
one Sees for Himself
that a thought is always an object
of stealth (ego).
the Realized-Self's Geometry-of-Intuition,
and with no-implication.
This-IS the Spiritual-Comprehension of one's Understanding,
that thought IS boundary and limitation-living.
Thought's use is meant only as a Through-Spirit object,
and Applied with no-expectation.
In this way,
the Real-Object that is His Presence,
Within the Moment's Experiential-Perception,
of any memory-plumbed,
or meaning questioned.
Overall, thought is always an object
As I followed the Spiritual-Indices
Perceived-Through His Presence (Intuition),
'I' Realized there is a dissolution -
at a Divine-Point Within Self-Realization -
of Method-Within one’s Spiritual Practice.
we know the ego-perceives itself
as its-own prescription.
it works through-belief-systems
Cioara calls this “patterns and fictitious conditioning.” *
The world calls “method” a Higher-Application,
but in Reality,
All that is needed
is a Focus-Through the Presence.
Christ called this effort ‘knocking’,
You said I was to ‘pierce.’
What I did instead,
was 'Point' the 'sharp-end'
of my 'Focus-Through'
Watching and Listening
for inner reactions,
Living Through the Spirit
is a Focus,
from a Distance
that Is All & Nothing.
It-Is one's Awareness of ego-extinction,
the consciousness' expressions
of His Reflections.
What occurs when one achieves this Universal Awareness -
this New-Perspective of Inner Self-Positioning -
is the Understanding-Beyond ‘challenges and conditioning’.
Mirth, laughter, and joyful creative-expression
Then-Becomes the momentary-possessions
of the Triangular Self-Conceptualization.
Cioara calls this the “United Trinity” of “whole being”, *
as one’s Experiential-Expression
of the Spirit.
Overall, within the Realized-Self
that is His-Expression,
is only an effort toward “loss-of-expectation.”
‘I’ may ‘Walk-on-Water’
through-use of the First-Kriya method,
but as said above,
its application is only-meant
to assist the development
of one’s Focus-Through Self-Creation.
that-is a “loss-of-expectation.”
When that Act of Inner-Transformative Devotion
is Focused-Through such an application (method),
Intuitively-Knows its Position,
which is Awareness-Only of His-Comprehension.
In that Now,
one’s experience IS-Already
of a Divine-Dimension,
and method-becomes only an invention.
method is 'Now-Realized' then
as another ego-prescription.
* Cioara, Ilie, The Silence of the Mind, John Hunt Publishing, Oct 16, 2011, Kindle Edition.
There is a Spiritual geometry to consciousness.
This is discerned through a one-pointed focus
within the Spirit's Presence,
beyond time, space, and ego-constrictions,
the un-limitation of Self is effected
AS the Spirit,
not only within-meditation,
but also 'without-beyond' convention.
In this way, the Spiritual-geometry
of one's own 'outline of beliefs'
are easily seen as His Reflection in Motion,
experientially and perceptually.
From this expanded-perspective,
'within-belief-living' is seen as a Reflection of functional-necessity.
when oriented via holy-structures,
such as interiorization of the consciousness upon God's Presence,
all such one-pointed efforts of 'belief-examination'
become the experience of Intuition, or paradox-comprehension.
This means that the consciousness of divine-dimensions
is the experiential-perception
of the Spirit's Reflection.
There is will in the factoring-through the physical by the Spirit's Presence;
nevertheless, it is-focused with devotional-force
through His Reflection in Motion (Intution).
In this way, funneling of one's own Spiritual-Comprehension
effectively-demonstrating through one's own-Intuitive ,
the Reflective-Location of the Presence's-Perception.
That is, one may experientially-perceive for himself
his own Spiritual-geometry
or 'navigating-position' through the Presence
In this way,
the symbolic meaning
of the Spiritual- geometry
of one's own beliefs
Is-Reflected via Intuition.