Review: Click and read John 16
Sometimes when I draw, a part of the form seen, becomes a reflection of the Word, and literally spells-out sections of the Bible that I am meant to review. Today, I perceived "John 16", and not having this consciously memorized, I reviewed it, and will now reflectively-reference through the Spirit, that experience (see today's developmental image of Convincing Adeline in the artist's Symbol Notebook).
Reflective-Reference of John 16
The experience of reading John 16 brought to mind a deep-ache I recall feeling as a child,
when I visited a Catholic Church with my best friend's family.
For some reason, I thought it was odd that these people I loved,
had wanted to go there at night.
I had no choice, I was their guest and a child, so I went along.
When we got there, I remember a long pathway, and the black and white, vertical design of the facade. It seemed to me that this place meant business. That-is, it seemed very formal in presentation - rigid, in my perception.
What is interesting about my visit to that Catholic Chuch,
was my experiential-perceptual (and instinctual) reaction.
I will never forget it. I can still see the wooden seats,
with kneeling-boards attached to the back of each one.
This was meant for you to kneel upon,
in prayer, I was told.
As I meandered further-behind my second-family between the pews, I physically felt like I was becoming heavier, or ill. I looked up, and I saw my 'other-mom' kneel in front of a large cross that was positioned above and behind the preacher's podium, and in that moment, I felt like my Soul was pulled from my chest by a Power unknown to me. That is, I Intuitively Knew the Spirit, but did not consciously comprehend Him then, and in the perceptual-experience of that discrepancy of my inner-position, I felt ill.
This recollection culls emotions, and as I sit here observing the tears, within this moment, and those shed secretly at 8-years-old, all I know is that I ran back outside in confusion. I knew it then, and I know it now, that Intuition, or the Presence of God's Spirit, positions each of us to see what we must, in order to bring our consciousness into alignment with His.
The tears of then and now are experiences. Experiences are always teaching mechanisms for Spiritual growth, and when the symbols surrounding the event are perceived as another layer of His Presence, one may discern the lesson He intends for 'you', within the awareness of, and exposure to, your own reaction.
John 16, interpreted through Intuition, is Christ's explication of one's location, in relation to a New Spiritual Comprehension, which is the conscious Realization of the Spirit. This interpretation is perceived as His Instruction, that upon the Spirit's conscious-arrival, one will know-within, the Now-Experiential-Spiritual-Perception (Intuition), of his own distance from the Spirit's Divine Position.
Christ said "13 But when he, the Spirit of truth, comes, he will guide you into all the truth. He will not speak on his own; he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come. 14 He will glorify me because it is from me that he will receive what he will make known to you. 15 All that belongs to the Father is mine. That is why I said the Spirit will receive from me what he will make known to you" (John 16: 13-15).
Overall, this reflective-reference was meant to explicate through John 16, factors and expressions of past-present experience for myself. This is how I have come to understand the Spirit's Presence, as a Reflective-Collaboration. That is, He is a Mirror of Divine Reflection.
In that, I see-now through this reflective-reference effort, that my reaction to the Catholic Church was the beginning of my own conscious-awakening to God's Spirit. Also, even though in time it has been 42 years since that seemingly-inexplicable reaction, it lingers in my Soul as significant, and through this reflection, I see a new Spiritual-Perception:
The Spirit's Presence is seemingly surreptitious.
That is, He will 'show-up' when unexpected
to the consciousness' experiential-Spiritual-perception.
He presents through symbol and Intuition,
one's Spiritual-interpreting 'Position',
which is meant for navigation,
through doubt, dubiousness, and frustration.
when we lie to ourselves,
or are confused about Love's Expression,
and Its-Eternal meaning as having no-expectation,
then one can see that John 16,
is pointing at the 'me', or the ego-position,
revealing it to be a deceptive-object of one's focus,
that creates confusion.
And the Intuitive 'conclusion',
is that Christ-Himself will deliver whatever-message,
necessary for your Life,
through the Spirit of your own Experiential-Perceptual-Reflection.