I am attempting to understand my own proclivity toward tenacity. God uses all parts of oneself to teach through the multi-layered consciousness.
According to Dictionary.com, tenacity is defined as "holding fast, persistence." One might think for himself, and in so doing, become enmeshed in desires of the heart in this way.
The Divine Carousel Moves East-to-West
As I have progressed in my search for understanding as to who and what I am, I have come to realize something of the why. For example, this notebook belongs amidst a vast library I observe within meditation, which is simultaneously a location that is an altered-state of mind. I enter meditation devotionally, surrounded by Astral Holy Personages who have been invited, and they arrive to guide our ascension inward and upward. Once freed of bodily distractions (ironically by an initial focus throughout the body, or 'body-scan'), we arrive in what seems an endless, vast cave that houses a Living Carousel. The Knowledge moves upon this form from right-to-left, or East-to-West, and is an Unceasing Mechanism. The Carousel, seen within this altered, meditative state, exudes Knowledge through what I have been intellectually naming "Atomized Spirit" within myself. Overall, I have arrived at this Wondrous Location instantaneously, as if the mind has trans-located itself from devotion to Spiritual Lesson, and wonderingly watched the brilliant, Divine Light carved into this Holy Carousel, move like a flowing river before the landscape of my sight.
Yogananda and Gandha Baba
In the book Autobiography of a Yogi, P. Yogananda calls this substance that is exuded from Spirit, "lifetrons." He states about an individual named Gandha Baba, that he is able to "attune himself with this pranic force by certain yoga practices, [and] was able to guide the lifetrons to rearrange their vibratory structure and objectify the desired result (54)."
Meditate with Devotion
My Highest Goal is always the first-hand, personal experience of God within myself. That said, and for some reason yet to be revealed, I am fascinated with the conceptual frameworks of Spiritual Reality, over physical reality: I mean, there is a path that surpasses identity with the physical, of which I am upon. The closest understandable link to an untrained mind about this spiritual path, is the conceptual framework of Imagination - I have stated many times herein that the imagination is a Holy Mechanism. Through use of it in the innocense of the devotional, meditative moment (such as an affirmation/visualization), one may begin to perceive with his singular sight the Light within himself. Overall, I desire to describe my meditative observations through drawing and writing, so that other Western minds who also may have limited, first-hand understanding of Spiritual mechanisms, may see through a contemporary artistic spirit, how Eastern conceptual frameworks are translatable and useable, in order to know the Others felt and perceived within meditative efforts.
Reality is Not What "You" Think
I have touched the edges of this Divine Carousel, in this meditative, altered-state-of-consciousness. What is revealed concerns Itself with Integration, and moving East-to-West within the Spiritualized Mind, one ultimately understands that Reality, is not what "you" think.
Source: Yogananda, P. Autobiography of a Yogi. Self-Realization Fellowship, 2014.